Post Meditation: Teeny Tiny Insights

“Suffering occurs when whatever we have – whatever we are – is assumed to be not right – not enough, too much, just somehow off ”Ethan Nichtern

Lately my practice has been to notice this over and over again, both in macro and micro.

In macro it looks like grandiose self-doubt, which I have written about a lot and is easy to recognize. My current practice is to proceed with caution. I try not to take these feelings too seriously, they are not me. I try to give them a lot of space, be gentle to them, but not to make a costume of them.

In micro it feels like tiny force fields of fear that keep me from engaging in the moment, but then I notice it – I notice that I am not seeing things clearly and come back. This is how the practice of sitting meditation – which sometimes feels fruitless – can affect post meditation. Sorry no stories of eternal bliss or anything.

Just little moments. Tiny beautiful moments. I am grateful.